Hey there.
It's been almost a month and time's passing really quickly nowadays. Don't know what to think, what to react, what to say nor what to feel. Sometimes i'm just so afraid that nothing's gonna change nor improve no matter how much more effort i'm gonna put in.. But i guess faith and perseverance will pay off someday. I hope. Ah okay i gotta go.

Petals fall, night comes
And hope is seemingly lost.
The silent darkness consumes us
Though a queer inner peace is also found.

Yet
Flowers bloom, the sun shines upon us once again.
We are enthralled, yet blinded by it's intensity
We don't know what to do
Nor where to go.

We are lost,
Lost in the world we created for ourselves,
Lst in the place we hope to be
Want to be
Wish to be
Yearn to be.

Frustrated, lost, angst.

But it is in these ups and downs,
These journeys and strifes
That we truly understand
That we truly grow
That we truly appreciate

We'd need to experience all these in life
Just to find ourselves
And to find the true meaning of our existence
Of us, living.

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What in the world did i just write hahaha. Anyway gonna post a long post next, haven't been posting for so long! Cya soon x

06. Where have you traveled?
Haha i must say i'm really blessed cause my family loves travelling and my dad works hard so we can afford it :') So yeah i'm quite well traveled for my age :) Shall do it by continents haha ^^

Asia: Singapore, Malaysia, Taiwan, Seoul, Tokyo (+ some parts of Jap i can't remember LOL i was 2y/o), Hangzhou, Nanjing, Beijing, Shanghai, Hongkong, Macau
Europe: Prague, Vienna, Paris, Switzerland, Provence, London, Copenhagen, Norway
Oceania: Perth, Pemberton, Sydney
USA: Hollywood, Los Angeles, Oregon, Las Vegas, Grand Canyon
Africa: (Egypt) Cairo, Aswan, Luxor
Middle East: Dubai

Probably going to Turkey / New York this holiday and i'm absolutely hyped!!

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My anxiety builds up as the days pass and the collection of results and papers are nearing. I just don't know what to expect anymore, and it's as though the chances of me retaining is hanging by the thread. Especially since i know my math is gonna be horrible. I witnessed my improvement, my added practice and hoped that it'll be substantial but.. i guess it wasn't. Had a huge headache and blanked out after flustering and skipping questions along the way so it was tough and i had to use abit of time to rest in the exam ugh. Whatever it is i'm only gonna strive harder and work smarter, i ain't gonna let myself, Mr Ong, Mr Lim nor my parents down, :(
Had a long talk with my parents last night and i know though it's tough and they may contradict what they say about not taking results into too much consideration (when they absolutely do), i know they care and love me so i guess i really have to work hard not just to make me believe in myself again, but also to make them believe in me again. I can't afford anymore disappointments.

I'm just so scared for Wednesday. I don't want to do badly anymore, after all the effort.
Life's not a bed of roses, but okay lets just end this post w pretty roses. Goodnight.