And when you're gone /
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok /
I miss you

Just find it quite sad that you seemingly don't care anymore. That you don't even bother to talk to me unless i ask you questions or whatever. That this friendship is obviously one sided cause i'm the one remembering you exist. It's like, hello? Remember me? We used to talk, a lot.

It bothers me that it could've been my fault that we became from best friends to mere hi-bye friends or sometimes even strangers. Maybe i shouldn't have distanced myself and my problems for your exams but i just couldn't let myself be a burden to anyone. You told me you understood. But where are you now? Must i really always be the one starting conversations, asking about your life and what's going on? It's truly becoming one sided and you're letting it be, isn't it?

People always say "friends come, friends go". I don't completely believe in that. I believe that every good friendship or relation with anyone should be cherished and should be fought for. I believe that every single person is worth the effort, that every single person is worth investing time and feelings for. So for my side, i'd never give up on anyone; but it does take both hands to clap.

I just hope we won't really be reduced to strangers, again.
I don't need to be a priority, but i hope i could at least be an option that you remember.

On a side note, i'm really happy with how things are turning out with R, (yes, hi if you're reading this; i'm blogging about you. BE HONOURED xx) and it's been a blessing to me. Though tbh it's not been easy to communicate much + i really don't want to burden him with my troubles and all seeing that camp is so taxing already + he's been really nice and idk what i did to deserve him + i still have my insecurities + i don't know what to do for him to alleviate whatever's in camp. Ah ok rambling again. But yeah you get my point. All in all i'm just so thankful.

Yep thats it from me, i think i've blogged enough these few days to overwhelm all of you with the nitty gritty details of my life. Goodbye for now and stay safe x