Showing posts with label best friend. Show all posts
Showing posts with label best friend. Show all posts

Thursday, 13 December 2012

And when you're gone /
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok /
I miss you

Just find it quite sad that you seemingly don't care anymore. That you don't even bother to talk to me unless i ask you questions or whatever. That this friendship is obviously one sided cause i'm the one remembering you exist. It's like, hello? Remember me? We used to talk, a lot.

It bothers me that it could've been my fault that we became from best friends to mere hi-bye friends or sometimes even strangers. Maybe i shouldn't have distanced myself and my problems for your exams but i just couldn't let myself be a burden to anyone. You told me you understood. But where are you now? Must i really always be the one starting conversations, asking about your life and what's going on? It's truly becoming one sided and you're letting it be, isn't it?


People always say "friends come, friends go". I don't completely believe in that. I believe that every good friendship or relation with anyone should be cherished and should be fought for. I believe that every single person is worth the effort, that every single person is worth investing time and feelings for. So for my side, i'd never give up on anyone; but it does take both hands to clap.

I just hope we won't really be reduced to strangers, again.
I don't need to be a priority, but i hope i could at least be an option that you remember.

On a side note, i'm really happy with how things are turning out with R, (yes, hi if you're reading this; i'm blogging about you. BE HONOURED xx) and it's been a blessing to me. Though tbh it's not been easy to communicate much + i really don't want to burden him with my troubles and all seeing that camp is so taxing already + he's been really nice and idk what i did to deserve him + i still have my insecurities + i don't know what to do for him to alleviate whatever's in camp. Ah ok rambling again. But yeah you get my point. All in all i'm just so thankful.

Yep thats it from me, i think i've blogged enough these few days to overwhelm all of you with the nitty gritty details of my life. Goodbye for now and stay safe x

Wednesday, 5 September 2012


Loving this song now :) Hehehe :) Anyway i gotta feeling....................to blog haha so i'm here now!!

Busy but productive two days it's been :) Met up with Weishuen on Monday to study in school and hohoho i finished like almost half of the H1 bio topics.. Okay maybe needing a lil more refinement but YES productive hahaha. Good start to the i-have-to-be-productive week :) Studied till about 4 then headed to Nex cause he wanted to get his Gundam LOL can still picture the gleam in his eyes when he beams at his loot :) Original plan was to watch Step Up tgt but ohwell it was kinda late and we were tired too, anyway. So yep that kinda sums up my Monday!

Today was quite productive too ehehe :) Met up with Yiling Ryan and Rachel to complete the Geog essay project (stupid stupid stupid) and yeah we did :) I really enjoy f2f meetings more, online ones are kinda scary cuz if they don't reply you don't know if they didn't see / are annoyed / don't know what to reply ._. So i guess that day they were either busy or in a bad mood haha. Really glad that i'm not a person who begrudges or whatever. Though i forgive people too easily at times - not in this context though. So yep we sorta completed it haha it's an extremely long essay but i hope Chang would mark a lil more leniently or sth :( Needa pull up my geog grades badly :(

Headed to KFC for lunch with Yiling and Ryan thereafter and it was nice i guess :) Stayed for awhile and chatted before i went back to school to mug in one of those 面壁思过 cubicles HAHA. Wasn't really that productive but i finished the driest part of hydrology (LOL IRONIC). Left at about 5 to meet Deon to study at tamp bux and woah i was superrrrrrrr productive hahahaha almost finishing Hydro, cept for the last catchment mgmt part!! :) Studied till like 10pm and i'm just really happy that nothing's changed (yes i've said this countless times but i AM happy okay hahahaha).

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Besides my daily postings what i really wanna post on now is about best friends :)
Blair and Serena from Gossipgirl!!! (OHMY HOW I MISS THAT SHOW -LESOBS-)
To me, i may have alot of people i view as good friends and close friends, but i guess there're only a few people / groups whom i regard as really my best friends / really really close friends. I don't expect them to view me in the same way but to me, these are the friends whom've transcended good and bad times / conflicts / events / etc. and i really am extremely grateful to have them in my life :) I'm truly an extraverted and extroverted person so i draw my energy from the people around me, and though at times i may feel lonely or alone or whatever, thinking about the good times and the fact that i've got these people with me - it makes me feel really blessed.

Much love to Eunice, Deon, Junzhong, Weishuen, Winne, Yanting, Weiting, Xiaomin, Shihming, Sining, Yuxuan, Jerome, Eric, Bryan, Clarice, Ruowei, Rachael, Huiyi, Vivienne, Olivia, Tiffany :)
   
 
Really grateful for each and every single one of them :) Okay to be honest i'm really grateful for everyone in my life, and regardless of whether you're a friend / someone i know exists / someone who doesn't like me / someone whom i've talked to, i really thank every one of you for making a difference in my life, be it in big or small ways. :)
 
Though i know some of the people above may not really view me in the same way i view them, i'd really like to appreciate each and every single one of em :)
 
I've long regarded Eunice as my best friend since Sec 3 when we ended up in the same class again, after Galen. Growing closer but nevertheless having some conflicts here and there, we were two people of rather different personalities that slowly became close :) I really miss having someone (like her) being around as a companion for events / projects / recesses and all, but i'm grateful that we're still close; and thank you for trusting me :)
 
As for Deon, it started out as a really random friendship, us becoming friends through Youth Day concert and through Weishuen. Talked and texted and i quickly realized how seemingly similar we were in the way we viewed things and the way we treated friends. He slowly grew into one of the closest and most trusted people in my life and through all the random studying / trips home / phone calls and all, he became my best friend, and one of the people that i know i'd cherish for as long as this friendship lasts :)
 
Weishuen has been there for me regardless of whether i treated him well or viewed him as a best friend. Haha to be honest i'm quite ashamed of myself when it comes to this, cause i knew at one point in time, I kind of neglected this friendship with him. We're both ESFPs hahah similarities galore :) And really, though he may seem like some joker or aloof person and all, he's actually really considerate, kind and i'm really glad to have him as a best friend all these years :) Our friendship may have had its highs and lows, but it lasted throughout all these and i'm just truly thankful for it. I'm glad to know that he views me as a best friend too, after all this while :)
 
It came as a shock to me when Junzhong actually got into Dunman High and into DHSChoir. I knew him since Y3 cause of Weishuen (he's weishuen's cousin) and never in my life would i have expected him to be in the same school and same cca. But the most random but amazing thing happened as well - he became one of my best friends :) Through all the talking / eating / confiding etc, it was kinda cool how we became from "people who know each other" to really close friends.. Extremely unexpected for me too, but i guess we really trust each other and all :)
 
Winne's a really good friend to me :) Throughout Y3 and Y4, though we had our disagreements at the start due to IDMI, our interests in LIVERPOOL (muahahah YNWA) and complementing personalities made us much closer over the months and the year :) Hahaha she's one person i wouldn't really feel awkward around even if there were to be silences or anything - and i believe that that's an important thing in any friendship!
 
Ah, my lovely bunch of Galen dears :) Yanting, Weiting, Xiaomin, Shihming, Sining and Yuxuan are 6 of the most awkward, wacky, fun and endearing people i know in my life, and though i may not be personally and equally close to all of them, i'm truly happy to have them in my life. This friendship's grown and sustained over the course of this 5 years and i'm just extremely happy that i've got these bunch of wackos to be awkward around and be fun with :) The birthday celebrations really bonded us much more over this year and i'm just...happy :) Really :)
 
Jerome's been one who makes me feel like a very cherished friend HAHA. Imo we both trust each other quite alot and i'm just glad to know that we'd be there for each other if we ever have no one else to confide in or anything HAHAHA we'll always spill the beans. Really hoping that he'd shine in VJ and that he and J would last long lalala. He deserves alot more than he's getting now.
 
This particular friendship of mine has brought me to my extremely low moments haha. I still remember Bryan as the little kiddo who resembled a chipmunk back in Mt Sinai days as Year Ones :) As time passed he grew and his temper grew too (i know best, H A H A. -__-). Though our friendship was a really rocky one with loads of angst from his side and all, he's a friend who's been there to give me the most frank and outright opinions, making me reflect on some of the things i do and say.. He may have his tempers but as a close friend, he's a keeper haha so i'm really glad to have him in my life too :) Just hoping we'll see more of the better days than the bad ones in future LOL.
 
To be honest i don't know why Eric's name popped up into my head hahahaha. I guess, in many ways, though our thinking is really quite different, we complement each other cause we get to see the different perspectives and views of some issues and things in our life. He's been there as a motivator and a caring friend, and tbh i'm guilty of somewhat neglecting this friendship haha. We've known each other since Y3 through (yet again) really random meetings HAHA. He's been a good confidante as i have been to him (IF YOU'RE READING THIS, DON'T DENY HAHAHA) and i'm glad i got to know him and i'm thankful for him being there for me for many things :)
 
Haha, last but definitely not least, i've got my 6 adorable choirgirl's who've brightened up my life in many many ways :) Though we're not as close anymore cause we don't get to go out as often this year (hint hint we need to go out after EOYs/ Promos/ As), they've been a really fun bunch to be with, never failing to make me laugh and brighten my day with their epicness and bimboness (for some) :) Hoping this would be lasting cause i really cherish them :)
 
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The list of people i'm grateful to have in my life is really non-exhaustive, but i guess these are the people who made a great impact in my life.. well, at least in the more recent years. I may not be the best person around to befriend, but i've gotta say that i'm doing my best and i'd mean what i say - i'd do my upmost best to be there for everyone as long as they approach me or whatever hahaha :) Over the years and experiences, i've truly learnt not to judge, not to bitch, and not to complain too much over a person or event - cause at the end of the day, even if some people break the form of trust or betray one another in the friendship, as long as we stay true to them and to ourselves, i really believe that everything will turn out fine :) People may not have a very good impression of me / may not like some of the things i do but yeah, i'm just giving it my all to stay true to my beliefs and hoping that those people who judge me (before even knowing me) would get to know the "true" me and start to change their perceptions to better ones. I can't please the whole world, but it ain't stopping me from trying. Afterall, people in my life would affect me one way or another, so why not bring be the first to show kindness? Kindness begets kindness, right? :)
 
Hahahah it's been a long post but i feel really relieved all of a sudden. If you've read till here, thank you and i really appreciate you for whoever you may be :) So yeap, it's been a long day and i'm looking forward to another productive mugging session at my house later HAHA. Goodnight, sweet dreams; may we all find better days, and may the world be a better place! OH, POET ME. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA OKAY BYE, :D



Tuesday, 28 August 2012



Good day today :) Had normal lessons and i managed to learn alot from the 1.5H Math tutorial. Mr Ong's really patient and meticulous, just really trying not to let him down in the upcoming promos..
After that was GP and Mr Tan refused to come back to teach us, so yeah we self-studied and all :/ Wasn't hungry so i sat in the CSC lesson haha it was quite an eye-opener seeing how relaxed the teacher was. And i agree with Valerie, he DOES look like a bear!!! :)

Rehearsed for the TDC with Lin Yao and Vally after that and finally completed the PPT in the library and sent it to Mingquan ~_______~

Anyway the best part of my day: I TALKED TO MY BEST FRIEND AGAIN, AFTER SO LONG. AND EVERYTHING'S STILL OKAY. NOT AWKWARD. NOTHING'S CHANGED. I AM SO HAPPYYYYYYYYY. Glad and grateful :) Saw him in the library and he looked like some rapper studying and lip-synching the notes in a hoodie so i decided to break this stupid code of silence and text him HA okay and then we finally acknowledged each other and talked ohgoodlord I am so relieved now. Can't imagine life without any of my best friends D/E/JZ/WS + fav people :)

So here's to lasting friendships and happy days :) Bye :)

Monday, 27 August 2012

I hate the feeling that we're drifting away from each other

What a record breaking one week of totally no hellos, no questions, nothing. It's sad how I'm feeling this way and you're probably too preoccupied with other things to even bother. Even simple things like replying to my tweets or a simple initiated wave would make me happy - but there was literally nothing. Maybe i'm the one that should try harder, that should take the initiative, but i guess for now its a test on how reliant i am on you, and how much you, on the other hand, bother.

I'm tired of being the one having to keep friendships together and i'm just tired of trying too hard and getting misunderstood for my intentions. Just so you know, i can go all out for a friend. And especially for you, my best friend. It doesn't mean my contributions of effort means that  i like you in any romantic way. I just hope everything will be fine and things won't turn out awkward cause of all this.

Or maybe i'll just get used to this and we'd be reduced to mere hi-bye friends.